YES dio is attached to my hip literally literally attached to my hip right now which is better than he was attached to my leg we can't get unstuck weve been like this for hours he finally fell asleep
[It's the sharpness of the words that gets to him. Giorno hasn't ever spoken to him in such a way. It's not bad, but it reminds him of Kakyoin-- short and sharp, a little frustrated. Pay attention, that's what that tone means.
He doesn't answer right away. Instead, he looks at the figure next to him-- asleep, yeah, snoring away, one arm slung over Polnareff's stomach, using him like a particularly muscular teddy bear. There's a little frown on his face-- this definitely isn't the easiest sleep he's ever had-- but he's asleep. Defenseless.
There's a lot of things he could say, starting with: he showed me the World and ending with I didn't kill him, even though I might have, even though Chariot was going wild, and maybe that's why he trusts me. But he's still sorting that out in his mind.
So, instead:]
we were fencing yknow when it happened fencing without you there i mean i dont know if he trusts me but i think he knows i wont hurt him
[It isn't meant to hurt. Just to get his attention. Of course, if pain is the side effect, he's cold enough not to mind it much. He understands what this means; Polnareff won't, with his abundance of love stretching back decades. If he has to translate for Dio, who won't say it, he will.]
[I am, he nearly says, but the one benefit about typing one-handed is that he has to think a lot more before he writes anything. And so he thinks, and-- well. What are Dio's choices, exactly? Jotaro? No. Polnareff loves Jotaro more than anything, trusts him with his life-- but Jotaro murdered Dio once, and Polnareff had no doubt his friend would do it again if it didn't mean alienating Giorno.
Kakyoin? More likely than Jotaro. Hadn't Kakyoin said that he and Dio were even semi-friendly? But perhaps Dio knew what he did to Kakyoin in the future, perhaps he had some awful guilt. I hate myself and everything I become, Dio had once told him, and it wouldn't be such a stretch for Kakyoin's death to be included in that hatred and guilt.
Which left him. The man who had declared himself proudly to be one of Dio's murderers his first day; who had confessed to him two months later that he was just as terrified of the kid as the kid was of him. Who offered him knowledge, complete with all the boundaries he wanted to set in place. Who'd just cooked him supper, who had asked him about what he was learning and how it was going and all sorts of stupid, inane shit.
Another long pause. This conversation might be full of them.]
[And then Giorno pauses, too, and does his best to self-reflect. He knows, honestly, that he isn't at his most objective on this particular subject. He loves Dio too much and wants to protect him too fiercely to care what anyone else thinks at this point. But he loves Polnareff too, and wants to protect him, and so this is where he finds himself.]
[All of his people deserve his care.]
i didn't either but it's easier for me in some ways almost everything i've found here has been an addition, not a subtraction or a change of what already was
i never expected to meet him i had no preconceived notions only dreams
is it better than you thought itd be? i mean different yeah but
[He has no idea. Oh, his mother had died early, but there was a world of difference between dying and not being around. Polnareff's childhood had been filled with unconditional love, and he'd always known it. To not know a father at all, to know that your mother had fled him, to have the kind of upbringing Giorno had--]
honestly i thought he might try to kill me when i got older, i mean, and after talking to you especially the first thing he did when he got here was threaten mista and you can imagine how well that went over
when i was little, though, i just wanted him to come save me
[That isn't meant cruelly, but rather empathizing: he's sure Giorno did want that. Who wouldn't?]
i didnt know he had kids back home we never even thought to look around for them dont take this the wrong way giorno but i kind of thought he wouldnt allow there to be any kids or if there were theyd be raised by him
i don't think anyone would take offense to that why would he, what would be the benefit when i learned more i just thought he'd see me as a threat, if anything, or something to be used i never understood why he wanted my mother to keep me maybe he just hated her that much
when all this is over you and me should start bringing him some meals theres not much here i mean theres not much at home but theres REALLY not a lot here
im not saying like let's go and start meals on wheels im just saying the kids just got a can of spaghetti and some oats
[Dio had eaten most of the spaghetti, too. It wasn't as if a dinky can would have done Polnareff much good-- four of them, maybe.]
i dont im not trying to get in your way or anything after this me and him probably wont see much of each other but if i think of him as a kid its easier
i dont know at least tonight nothing is going to happen either to him or me and tomorrow i guess well see what happens maybe ill just go back to avoiding him
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your father actually
your other father
your fathers are hanging out
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[WH]
this IS polnareff isn't it?
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dio is attached to my hip
literally
literally attached to my hip right now which is better than he was attached to my leg
we can't get unstuck
weve been like this for hours
he finally fell asleep
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did you try chopping off your attached body parts because i could regrow them
also where are you if you're not here?
thats a lie its just one comment
were at his place
he didnt want to come to the mansion so
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i can't believe he let you in
he never lets anyone in
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he could have broken into a vacant apartment
he could have made you sleep in the park
he could have taken one of the rooms above the coffee shop
he didn't. he let you into his home.
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He doesn't answer right away. Instead, he looks at the figure next to him-- asleep, yeah, snoring away, one arm slung over Polnareff's stomach, using him like a particularly muscular teddy bear. There's a little frown on his face-- this definitely isn't the easiest sleep he's ever had-- but he's asleep. Defenseless.
There's a lot of things he could say, starting with: he showed me the World and ending with I didn't kill him, even though I might have, even though Chariot was going wild, and maybe that's why he trusts me. But he's still sorting that out in his mind.
So, instead:]
we were fencing yknow
when it happened
fencing without you there i mean
i dont know if he trusts me but i think he knows i wont hurt him
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i'm impressed
that he did that i mean
not surprised that it's you he trusts, though
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Kakyoin? More likely than Jotaro. Hadn't Kakyoin said that he and Dio were even semi-friendly? But perhaps Dio knew what he did to Kakyoin in the future, perhaps he had some awful guilt. I hate myself and everything I become, Dio had once told him, and it wouldn't be such a stretch for Kakyoin's death to be included in that hatred and guilt.
Which left him. The man who had declared himself proudly to be one of Dio's murderers his first day; who had confessed to him two months later that he was just as terrified of the kid as the kid was of him. Who offered him knowledge, complete with all the boundaries he wanted to set in place. Who'd just cooked him supper, who had asked him about what he was learning and how it was going and all sorts of stupid, inane shit.
Another long pause. This conversation might be full of them.]
i didnt expect it
or him
or this place, any of it
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[And then Giorno pauses, too, and does his best to self-reflect. He knows, honestly, that he isn't at his most objective on this particular subject. He loves Dio too much and wants to protect him too fiercely to care what anyone else thinks at this point. But he loves Polnareff too, and wants to protect him, and so this is where he finds himself.]
[All of his people deserve his care.]
i didn't either
but it's easier for me in some ways
almost everything i've found here has been an addition, not a subtraction or a change of what already was
i never expected to meet him
i had no preconceived notions
only dreams
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i mean different yeah but
[He has no idea. Oh, his mother had died early, but there was a world of difference between dying and not being around. Polnareff's childhood had been filled with unconditional love, and he'd always known it. To not know a father at all, to know that your mother had fled him, to have the kind of upbringing Giorno had--]
hes so different as a kid
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when i got older, i mean, and after talking to you especially
the first thing he did when he got here was threaten mista and you can imagine how well that went over
when i was little, though, i just wanted him to come save me
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i bet
[That isn't meant cruelly, but rather empathizing: he's sure Giorno did want that. Who wouldn't?]
i didnt know he had kids back home
we never even thought to look around for them
dont take this the wrong way giorno but i kind of thought he wouldnt allow there to be any kids
or if there were theyd be raised by him
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why would he, what would be the benefit
when i learned more i just thought he'd see me as a threat, if anything, or something to be used
i never understood why he wanted my mother to keep me
maybe he just hated her that much
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[He sighs and glances down at Dio.]
when all this is over you and me should start bringing him some meals
theres not much here
i mean theres not much at home but theres REALLY not a lot here
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[Wait. No. Why? He worries his lip.]
okay
i
if you want to do that
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[Dio had eaten most of the spaghetti, too. It wasn't as if a dinky can would have done Polnareff much good-- four of them, maybe.]
i dont
im not trying to get in your way or anything
after this me and him probably wont see much of each other
but if i think of him as a kid its easier
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it's just
i don't know
i'm just worried, everything about this makes me worry
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[That was kind of mean, he thinks belatedly.]
i dont know
at least tonight nothing is going to happen
either to him or me
and tomorrow i guess well see what happens
maybe ill just go back to avoiding him
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if it doesn't end by tomorrow i'm coming over
or if one of you asks, whichever comes first
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thats not what i meant
i just meant youre not the only one scared
not by a long shot
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that doesn't make it any less true
and the truth of it means any comfort i can offer is hollow
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what exactly are you afraid might happen
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