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[digiorno]

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[starmark]

...

It feels like insulting him, sort of. Just hear me out, I'm just trying to put down what it feels like whether or not it makes sense.

It feels like it comes too close to saying "I like you better like that", which makes it sound like there's something wrong with him as he is in general. Or I'm afraid he'll hear it that way.

But if I didn't have to be so careful about all of that, then what I would say is that he looks like a really good-looking girl. Like the ones you see in magazines. Not dirty ones, just regular ones. Or like the ones in movies, the heroines.

I guess for me it's...wearing a dress makes him look more like a girl. So he looks good, but...in a girl-like way? Because I can't say he looks like a tough rugged guy, because he doesn't. He looks the way that really attractive girls in magazines do. That type of good.

...I guess I'm afraid of just saying what it makes me think because if it comes out wrong, it'll make him feel bad. And I don't want that.

[digiorno]

You disaster.

Here's my hypothesis.

Normally, you look at Kakyoin and you are very careful to put him in the category of "boy", because you know that's what he wants to be seen as. Therefore, it doesn't surprise you as much that he could kick your ass ten times before you blinked, because that's a thing you expect that boys can do.

When Kakyoin is wearing a dress, you look at him and his clothes make you think "girl". You don't expect girls to be able to totally eviscerate you, but you know Kakyoin can, so a few wires get crossed and you're confused, but you still think he looks good, because he does. And the fact that those wires get crossed make you much more aware of the contrast, that he's very beautiful but also very dangerous, and so you trip over yourself. Because on some level you want to treat him like something beautiful and fragile and have him prove you wrong. But you don't know how to articulate that, because you're a teenage boy and therefore a mess.

And also legitimately concerned about saying something asinine. But mostly just a mess.

1/2

[starmark]

...............

YES

THAT

[starmark]

also i think

...i think i want there to be a way for me to treat him like he's beautiful and fragile but not have him think that me doing that means that he is

or that i THINK he is

i want to just do it because...maybe because i never treat things like that? except maybe jolie. i think i would like treating him with that kind of...

...softness? or something.

[digiorno]

oh my GOD how do you FUNCTION IN SOCIETY

jotaro this is killing me

i'm dying

take care of danny for me this is the end

[starmark]

I DON'T FUNCTION IN SOCIETY

THAT'S WHY I HAVE SO MUCH CAZZIMMA

[digiorno]

YOU CAN DO BOTH

GOD okay

i just

jotaro

you can just DO THAT

LITERALLY WHAT YOU JUST SAID, YOU CAN DO IT

[starmark]

if i do that and he gets the wrong idea whose ass are you going to kick

his or mine

[digiorno]

yours because if you talk to him with real actual words and put some thought behind them he won't be upset

he'll just say "okay" or "no i don't want to" and that will be that either way

but you have to actually talk to him, face to face, not over these things, because that way he'll be able to tell you're serious and not just fucking around

which i know you wouldn't but he's kakyoin

[starmark]

yeah

i should do it that way anyway BECAUSE i like text better

so if he can take a big step like that and wear a dress then i should be able to take one and do something like that in person instead of just what makes me feel safe

[digiorno]

that's very noble but no

sorry jotaro but it's not about who can make the grander gesture, it's about talking to each other

if it were something where the only way to do it was to talk over text and that was the best option then that's what you should do. this just doesn't happen to be that situation.

[starmark]

i wasn't thinking of it as a gesture. more like...trying to meet halfway. or something.

but i get what you're saying. i'm focusing on the wrong thing, either way, when i need to be focusing on the part about talking.

and saying what i want, so that he can understand me too. right?

[digiorno]

that's right

you're very clever but you're not as good at talking as he is, so you have to make a little extra effort

i'm not saying you can't do it, you very much can, i'm just saying, as you said, you have to be focused on it

[starmark]

yeah.

i'll make sure to think about it and i don't know maybe practice a little so i don't get stuck looking for words. but i'll set myself a limit too so i don't just practice forever and never do anything.

[digiorno]

i'll help you practice if you want. unless that would make it harder, which is valid i suppose. i'm not as nice to you as kakyoin is.

[starmark]

can you help me figure out how to get into the topic to start with

i don't want to just be blunt and blurt things out like i usually do. so a way in would be good to start with i think.

[digiorno]

hmm

well what do you usually talk about when it's just the two of you

[starmark]

um...

well, our stands

stuff we did today

you

dumb things jiji did

dumb things polnareff did

[digiorno]

you are so cute

okay well don't start off with talking about your grandfather i don't think that would go over well or even make sense

. . . how do you talk about hierophant? when you talk about him with kakyoin, i mean

[starmark]

...well, sometimes i'll say hey, are you busy, can i see hierophant

and he'll usually say sure and then bring him out

and then i'll kind of get tangled up in his coils and unwind and relax or whatever, because it's easier to do that when hierophant is all around me

and then sometimes i kiss him. hierophant, i mean

and then i guess i just say what i'm feeling, if i end up feeling something? like that i like him, or whatever

[digiorno]

see this is where i wonder if i'm actually very helpful

because when i talk about hierophant i talk about how he's clever and beautiful and powerful and dangerous, and from there you could talk about the rest of it

but we really don't talk at all alike

[thank you captain obvious]

[starmark]

...no but that does give me an idea

since what i want to talk to him about is sort of about clothes

i can get into it with clothes, and then just say...also here's what i thought about your clothes. maybe that will work

[digiorno]

there you go

see just do the opposite of whatever i would do and you will be authentically jotaro

[starmark]

you make a good mirror, giornetto

it's easier to see myself through you

[digiorno]

what

that's cute too

oh

goddamnit jotaro