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[digiorno]

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[digiorno]

what

that's cute too

oh

goddamnit jotaro

[starmark]

are you embarrassed again

oh no i fucked up

[digiorno]

don't act like you're sorry!!

anyway i'm not

i mean i am but also

i guess um

. . .

i've sort of felt disconnected lately, from home and from all the things i'm supposed to do at home, and all my dreams

so it's nice to know that i can still be that for people

a good mirror

i want to be that, a mirror to show everyone their best selves, the selves they can learn to love even if it's terribly difficult

[starmark]

the selves they can learn to love?

[digiorno]

i suppose it might be better to say

the parts of themselves that they love the best

around those parts, people can build love for the rest

like cell division

building and building, forever

[starmark]

...do you think we've switched places a little bit, almost?

so, mirrors again

your dreams are at home and you've been away from them, and that makes it hard on you

i didn't have any dreams at home and only started building once i was here, so now this is where most of mine are

...

if i can ever be for you what you've been to me, i would like that a lot

[digiorno]

oh but

you already are?

i mean, you're not wrong either, i miss home, i miss mista and trish and everyone, even fugo sometimes

i miss the work, i get so bored here sometimes

but i wouldn't give this up for anything

getting to know polnareff back when he was happy, getting to know kakyoin, he feels like part of my heart now

and all of you . . . having family alongside my famiglia

i think being here makes me

no

knowing you makes me less hollow

like my heart is growing back again, slowly but surely

[starmark]

il cerchio di sostegno è un recinto intorno al giardino in cui il vostro cuore cresce.

that's not bad, for a family proverb.

[digiorno]

that's so LONG

but i like it

[starmark]

that can be the secret one

we'll tell people it's really "so cosa state pensando: ha fatto sparare sei colpi, o solo cinque".

[digiorno]

oh

does that mean that mista is both

family and famiglia?

[starmark]

...you mean yours and ours both?

that's the distinction, right? famiglia is yours and family is...us, this. right?

[digiorno]

um

yes



is that okay

[starmark]

of course. i'm just making sure i have the terms right, so i don't make a mistake.

yes, mista is family. you've given him your heart for safekeeping.

[digiorno]

oh

oh okay

okay i didn't know that

[starmark]

...

did you think i would shun him or something

[digiorno]

NO that's not

no

i don't know i just didn't know that was a thing that you'd just decided like it went without saying

[starmark]

maybe i'm just used to adding new people to my family by now

i've had to do it a lot whether i liked it or not, so

[digiorno]

but

this one you want right

[starmark]

...oh

i said that weird hang on

no i just meant the idea of it doesn't faze me as much as it would for some people maybe, like maybe that's my personal not-average or not-normal thing



mista is one of those people that i like a lot even when i'm not getting along with him. like the not getting along part somehow never reaches or touches the constant of liking him

and he makes you happy

and i have a feeling he needs you like you need him

so yeah

i want him as family

i mean that's not like the justification for WHY he's family but those are all things i think about him and it feels right to say "yes, he is" so that's that, for me

[digiorno]

oh

okay

that's good to know

because i worry sometimes . . . or think about it, at least, how i don't know if it's okay to have those two things overlap

family and famiglia





jotaro i should probably tell you something but try not to get mad please?

[starmark]

i will try as hard as i can to stay calm and hear you out

i promise

[digiorno]

okay

your grandfather and i sort of had a fight

and by sort of i mean we definitely did, a lot

and i didn't tell you at the time because i didn't want to talk about it but also i didn't want you to feel like you had to get in the middle of it because

i don't want to make you feel like you have to choose

and um we talked recently and i think things are okay now but

i thought you should know, since it's not awful anymore

[starmark]

...i think i can guess what you fought about

he blew up at kakyoin too at one point


i'm not mad

he asked me about you at one point and kind of did that, got me caught in the middle a little bit. but there are a lot of things about jiji that sometimes make me feel that way.

sometimes there are problems and i love everyone on every side of the problem, so that just means i can't and shouldn't get involved. and that's ok, i think.

[digiorno]

i know he did

i was there

and of course you know what it was, it's what i thought it would be

it's not as though i didn't expect it and i wasn't really on my best behavior because i was

scared? i think

which is strange to say but he's loud

i'm sorry he asked about me, i don't want you to . . . well. it's good loving lots of people but hard sometimes. but there are a lot of people who have enough reason to hate me for what i am so i don't want you to have to choose in those kinds of situations.