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[digiorno]

buongiorno! sorry i missed you; i'll happily get back to you as soon as i'm done with whatever business i'm on. leave a message!

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once the ragnakak settles down idk

[lapidarius]

I'm really sorry about bringing that whole mess to the cafe. I should have thought ahead or at least warned the rest of you first.

[...]

I'll replace the chair, too.

time is fake

[digiorno]

I'm not worried about the chair, Kakyoin.

[lapidarius]

Neither am I. I just thought that was a better place to start.

[digiorno]

I appreciate it.

Tell me.

[lapidarius]

Everything just backfired in record time. I stepped way over the line and screwed everything up.

I'm more concerned about you. Are you okay?

[digiorno]

I was afraid. It happens sometimes. I think I handled it fairly well, all things considered.

You're not okay, Kakyoin.

[lapidarius]

Not really. Right now it's more important to me that I make sure you will be.

[digiorno]

Is it ever more important to you, how you feel over how someone else does?

[lapidarius]

[nope]

Once in a while. Not often.

[digiorno]

Kakyoin.

You wouldn't lie to me, would you?

[lapidarius]

You and I both know you don't need me to answer that.

I never would.

[digiorno]

So tell me. Do you need to be alone right now, or do you need to not be alone?

[lapidarius]

I don't know.

[digiorno]

Will you let me help you figure it out?

[lapidarius]

I'm tired. I'm tired of feeling like nothing but trouble for everyone I care about.

I don't want you to go out of your way when I'm sure you have enough to work out right now.

[digiorno]

My workload is shrinking disastrously. People come and stay for a while and then they go. You are one of the few constants in my life right now, Kakyoin - someone solid, not shifting sand underfoot. You are never a burden to me, only a joy.

You know I wouldn't lie to you.

[lapidarius]

I know that you wouldn't. And I know that we'd be a mess without you. All of us. You're the best support any of us have, and if I can do the same for you then you know I would in a second.

[That seemed like all he was going to say, and then:]

i'm just so goddamn tired, giorno. i'm so tired of everything imploding when it seems for a minute like we'll all be okay. i'm tired of wondering if i'm going to end up the only one of us here again, or if i'll disappear first.

i'm so tired of feeling so miserable.

[digiorno]

Will you tell me where you are? Please. For me. I'll worry if you don't.

[lapidarius]

I'm okay, Giorno. I'm back at home in the library.

[digiorno]

If you're miserable, you're not okay. It's not okay with me.

[lapidarius]

I'm not-

'Miserable' wasn't the right word. I'm happy that we're here together even if it's not exactly perfect in any possible definition of the word. I can't say that I'm miserable knowing what my alternative is.

I just hate that I feel like everything I do is screwing up one way or another. I hate feeling afraid that either I or the rest of you will just disappear without warning.

[digiorno]

I think you can be miserable and happy at the same time. I often am.

[lapidarius]

What do you do about it when you are?

[digiorno]

[For a few moments, there's no response. And then comes the quiet scrape of a chair as Giorno pulls it up alongside Kakyoin, sits carefully, and nudges him with his shoulder.]

Generally, Kakyoin, I just lie. It doesn't work very well.

[lapidarius]

I'm not very good at lying, I'm afraid.