NOT THAT IM CALLING YOU ANNOYING just you know ive seen how you get when youre excited about like the dogs and stuff id think hed try to steer clear of someone like that
oh it's really all right honestly i am very annoying
it's sort of funny because i don't really understand why people like me a lot of the time! it doesn't make a lot of sense especially not coming from you, it's very confusing but then a lot of times people are confusing anyway
but anyway i think fugo likes me because he likes people who aren't much like him except the joke's on him because even though i don't act like it in some ways we're really very similar a lot of his friends from home are more like you than me anyway or were
[...That's right. He never did explain that, did he? A large part of it certainly was out of embarrassment, which is why he'd asked the questions he did anonymously, but another part of it was... Well, Joseph knew who he was talking to in the end, but Giorno didn't. And no matter how you look at it, Joseph exploited that. At least a little, he did.]
[But Christ, the kid talks like that and it sounds like . . . It sounds like . . . It sounds like the kid doesn't like himself. And not in that woeful sort of way some people do to fish for compliments from other people, but a genuine struggle to accept and like himself for the way he is, which doesn't seem right mostly because when they'd (for lack of a better term) fought with one another, Giorno came across as completely confident of himself and his position that Joseph was wrong about him and about Dio.]
[In the months that have followed since, they haven't really touched the subject much, but there's always been this undercurrent belief that Giorno's subtly pushed one way or another that Joseph's wrong about Dio. Joseph would still vehemently disagree and only maintains civility with Dio out of respect for Giorno, but Joseph always assumed that was the reason why Giorno pushed that rather than advocating for himself. He didn't need to advocate for himself because Joseph came around to seeing his good qualities and learned to break the association between Dio's legacy and Giorno's identity. Joseph learning to like Giorno was never under threat.]
[But this suggests something different and Joseph doesn't know exactly what to do with it because would it even matter what he has to say? Giorno and Joseph have buried the hatchet, sure, and they're close to something like friends, but they haven't known each other for very long and it's not like they've got some kind of endless reservoir of trust by now.]
[What does he do then? It feels wrong to just overlook it. He doesn't think his father would and he thinks Granny Erina would be pissed with him if he did. But, God, he knows he can't just offer some kind of blanket statement either. If he's going to be disingenuous like that, he might as well not say anything at all. But the idea of outing himself just feels like embarrassment he might not come back from as well.]
people like you because you help them you help them without them really having to ask and without asking anything back from them in return
[. . . Ffffffuuuuuuuucccckkkkkk . . .]
thats why i like you anyway you didnt know it was me and i really dont know if you would have helped me then if you had but that doesnt really matter because you helped me a lot with something really important i know it wasnt fair of me NOW but back then i didnt expect that out of you
i wont say where you came from doesnt matter because i think it always will at least a little to me and to you too probably but you proved me wrong because youre really kind giorno youre really kind and i think jonathan would be proud of you because of that because thats what granny erina wanted him to be remembered for and what she taught my dad and what she tried to teach me
[This is all . . . plenty confusing all on its own, honestly. Everything about helping people. He doesn't understand that. He doesn't know what Joseph's talking about, about helping him. He doesn't remember doing that.]
[All he knows is that by the time he's read the whole message, his vision is too blurry to really see what he's writing back. All he knows is that he's saying something, but he really has no idea what.]
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just you know
ive seen how you get when youre excited about like the dogs and stuff
id think hed try to steer clear of someone like that
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honestly i am very annoying
it's sort of funny because i don't really understand why people like me a lot of the time!
it doesn't make a lot of sense
especially not coming from you, it's very confusing
but then a lot of times people are confusing anyway
but anyway
i think fugo likes me because he likes people who aren't much like him
except the joke's on him because even though i don't act like it in some ways we're really very similar
a lot of his friends from home are more like you than me anyway
or were
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[But Christ, the kid talks like that and it sounds like . . . It sounds like . . . It sounds like the kid doesn't like himself. And not in that woeful sort of way some people do to fish for compliments from other people, but a genuine struggle to accept and like himself for the way he is, which doesn't seem right mostly because when they'd (for lack of a better term) fought with one another, Giorno came across as completely confident of himself and his position that Joseph was wrong about him and about Dio.]
[In the months that have followed since, they haven't really touched the subject much, but there's always been this undercurrent belief that Giorno's subtly pushed one way or another that Joseph's wrong about Dio. Joseph would still vehemently disagree and only maintains civility with Dio out of respect for Giorno, but Joseph always assumed that was the reason why Giorno pushed that rather than advocating for himself. He didn't need to advocate for himself because Joseph came around to seeing his good qualities and learned to break the association between Dio's legacy and Giorno's identity. Joseph learning to like Giorno was never under threat.]
[But this suggests something different and Joseph doesn't know exactly what to do with it because would it even matter what he has to say? Giorno and Joseph have buried the hatchet, sure, and they're close to something like friends, but they haven't known each other for very long and it's not like they've got some kind of endless reservoir of trust by now.]
[What does he do then? It feels wrong to just overlook it. He doesn't think his father would and he thinks Granny Erina would be pissed with him if he did. But, God, he knows he can't just offer some kind of blanket statement either. If he's going to be disingenuous like that, he might as well not say anything at all. But the idea of outing himself just feels like embarrassment he might not come back from as well.]
people like you because you help them
you help them without them really having to ask and without asking anything back from them in return
[. . . Ffffffuuuuuuuucccckkkkkk . . .]
thats why i like you anyway
you didnt know it was me and i really dont know if you would have helped me then if you had but that doesnt really matter because you helped me a lot with something really important
i know it wasnt fair of me NOW but back then i didnt expect that out of you
i wont say where you came from doesnt matter because i think it always will at least a little to me and to you too probably
but you proved me wrong because youre really kind giorno
youre really kind and i think jonathan would be proud of you because of that because thats what granny erina wanted him to be remembered for and what she taught my dad and what she tried to teach me
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[All he knows is that by the time he's read the whole message, his vision is too blurry to really see what he's writing back. All he knows is that he's saying something, but he really has no idea what.]
what
hed' be proud of mje?
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i think he would be anyway
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[. . .]
ok
thank you i
he's only the second person ever who ive wanted to be proud of me
so thank you it means a lot
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