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[digiorno]

buongiorno! sorry i missed you; i'll happily get back to you as soon as i'm done with whatever business i'm on. leave a message!

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[kicksdogs]

Take me seriously!

[digiorno]

I AM!!

I WAS BEING SERIOUS!!!!!!!!

[kicksdogs]

I want a new name and you're over here telling me to call myself a dying star in Italian because it makes you feel warm inside. I don't think that's being very serious.

[digiorno]

You make me feel warm inside. You wanted me to pick a name that reminds me of you, and that one does! If you want a name that sounds cool, go to someone else, especially if you won't even tell me why you want a new name! But if it was me, I'd want a name that felt like love feels, and love feels warm to me.

[kicksdogs]

Your opinion is the one that matters to me. I don't care what others think.

[A moment between messages.]

I don't know why. Or maybe I do, but I'm not sure how to explain it.

[digiorno]

You don't have to explain it. I just don't know what kind of name you want.

[kicksdogs]

I want a name that isn't owned by some creature in the future. A way to separate myself.

[digiorno]

Oh. Yes, I see. I think I understand.

Then — don't you think it's most important to name yourself how you see yourself?

[kicksdogs]

If I did that I don't think I'd come up with anything particularly decent.

[digiorno]

We'll work on that later, then.

Tell me what you don't like about what I said, and I'll come up with something better.

[kicksdogs]

I don't want to hear that name and think of something as large and bright as the sun. I don't feel like it fits me.

[digiorno]

All right. So . . . you want something that isn't quite so much of a big deal, but also not something that is how you really think of yourself, because that wouldn't be positive. Is that right?

[kicksdogs]

Yes.

[digiorno]

. . . Inizio. It means "beginning". Or Esordio — that's "debut".

[kicksdogs]

[A few minutes pass.]

I like Inizio.

[digiorno]

I like it, too. I think it suits you.

[kicksdogs]

This is strange, isn't it?

[digiorno]

What do you mean?

[kicksdogs]

Pretending like this.

Like I can become someone else. It wouldn't even matter here.

[digiorno]

I don't think it's pretending.

Why wouldn't it matter?

[kicksdogs]

You know why.

Since my arrival almost everyone here seems to know everything about me. Trying to change my name and pretending I'm not

It's stupid. This was a stupid idea.

[digiorno]

Please don't give up.

[kicksdogs]

There's nothing to give up! I shouldn't have even said anything so just forget all of this, Giorno.

[digiorno]

I will if that's what you want. As long as you remember that I believe in you and I love you and I'll never give up on you or stop believing in you or loving you.

[kicksdogs]

[He can't answer this right away with the lump in his throat and a burning at the corners of his eyes. Even after their last real honest conversation it was still... hard to hear. See. Those words. The hardest part was knowing that Giorno was sincere too.]

If I'm honest I don't know what I want yet.

But I

love you

too.