i know! but it's just i don't know it's complicated
there's famiglia and that's bruno and izabel and dio and all the people who were with me and left and then there's family and that's you and jotaro and kakyoin and mrs kujo and jonathan when he was here but i don't know if i should be part of both or in the middle? and i don't know how to be anyone's son i just don't know how to be that
[All right. Best to take each of these point by point.]
1. its complicated but thats life i think. families and friends and all of it is complicated. 2. you can be whatever you want. and i dont mean that as a blowoff, i mean: you can be as much a part of it as you want. i know some people who'd hate to be part of something they felt they weren't, like who'd hate me saying OH CALL ME PAPA because they'd think i was being stupid. which i wasn't but.
my point is you can think "i'm part of both, in both", or you can think "im in the middle", and I think everybody would be okay with it. mrs kujo is pretty great about being nice to everyone, and kakyoin--
I mean, he doesn't like his real parents at all. but that doesn't mean he doesn't have family-- he just found it in other people. in me and you and jotaro.
3. you just have to be its like i said before all you have to do is be you theres no script or guide or whatever to being somebodys son or brother or whatever you just you're there for the person, and do right by them, and thats that
[He frowns at all this before sending it out, unsure if he made his point successfully or not. After a moment:] youre somebody's son when they look out for you and you can come to them for comfort if you need it
[That actually helps. A lot, he thinks, and decides not to respond point by point because Polnareff asked him another question and he never answered it.]
it was my name before when i was born that was the name on my birth certificate first name haruno last name shiobana they changed it when we moved but i didn't understand why for a long time i liked my old name it means different things but all of them are about blooming and spring and new beginnings
um yes i think so not because i like it better i just don't want to explain to everyone kakyoin knows because i told him and jotaro found out and bruno knows but i don't know not everybody should know
[He does like it, though. He likes it the same way he likes Noriaki-- not to be used every day, no, but something to treasure, something to bring out on occasion.]
i have no idea what my name means how on earth do you know yours
i like to know what things mean giorno means morning good morning, buon giorno i used to look up flower names and meanings back when i first found out about gold experience i'd go to the library and spend hours there in the evening until they closed
no i just think it's funny and then carlos always says buon giorno giorno and that's funny too and once jotaro thought i said "tomorrow will be a better giorno" when i meant "day" he's cute
you could say that whenever you try to improve yourself TOMORROW WILL BE A BETTER GIORNO you can say and everyone will believe it jotaro is v intelligent except when he's a dumbass as you have seen re: romance
im surprised you actually got to see him without his hat one time he fought a stand UNDERWATER and when he came back up he STILL had his hat on but nah i think its the only time he can let himself be
not relaxed but kind of relaxed not in control, maybe
no he's like that other times too when he's with jolie or kakyoin or when we're just hanging out or when he's teasing me or when he's letting me see star, or being with star or lots of other times really
i'm really proud of him you know i think he's so strong and he works so hard all the time i'm glad he's getting good things
[It's true, but it's different from the Jotaro Polnareff remembers. Do I seem different, then? Jotaro had asked, and at the time, Polnareff had shrugged-- but now he gets it. It's no bad thing, no, but it is jarring.]
yeah i worry about him a lot but i think hes got it good here
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i don't know it's complicated
there's famiglia and that's bruno and izabel and dio and all the people who were with me and left
and then there's family and that's you and jotaro and kakyoin and mrs kujo and jonathan when he was here
but i don't know if i should be part of both or in the middle? and i don't know how to be anyone's son i just don't know how to be that
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1. its complicated but thats life i think. families and friends and all of it is complicated.
2. you can be whatever you want. and i dont mean that as a blowoff, i mean: you can be as much a part of it as you want. i know some people who'd hate to be part of something they felt they weren't, like who'd hate me saying OH CALL ME PAPA because they'd think i was being stupid. which i wasn't but.
my point is you can think "i'm part of both, in both", or you can think "im in the middle", and I think everybody would be okay with it. mrs kujo is pretty great about being nice to everyone, and kakyoin--
I mean, he doesn't like his real parents at all. but that doesn't mean he doesn't have family-- he just found it in other people. in me and you and jotaro.
3. you just have to be
its like i said before
all you have to do is be you
theres no script or guide or whatever to being somebodys son or brother or whatever
you just
you're there for the person, and do right by them, and thats that
[He frowns at all this before sending it out, unsure if he made his point successfully or not. After a moment:]
youre somebody's son when they look out for you
and you can come to them for comfort if you need it
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[That actually helps. A lot, he thinks, and decides not to respond point by point because Polnareff asked him another question and he never answered it.]
it was my name before
when i was born that was the name on my birth certificate
first name haruno last name shiobana
they changed it when we moved but i didn't understand why for a long time
i liked my old name
it means different things but all of them are about blooming and spring and
new beginnings
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i like it
it's nice
i like giorno too
do you want to keep being called giorno?
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yes i think so
not because i like it better i just don't want to explain to everyone
kakyoin knows because i told him and jotaro found out and bruno knows but
i don't know
not everybody should know
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[He does like it, though. He likes it the same way he likes Noriaki-- not to be used every day, no, but something to treasure, something to bring out on occasion.]
i have no idea what my name means
how on earth do you know yours
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giorno means morning
good morning, buon giorno
i used to look up flower names and meanings back when i first found out about gold experience
i'd go to the library and spend hours there in the evening until they closed
jean is like john isn't it? john the baptist?
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i mean i have no idea
its just my name
that actually nobody ever uses so better question what the hell does polnareff mean
even better question do you always think someone is calling your name when they say good morning in italy
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pole (pole)
nah (no)
ref(eree)?
i have no idea
no i just think it's funny
and then carlos always says buon giorno giorno and that's funny too
and once jotaro thought i said "tomorrow will be a better giorno" when i meant "day"
he's cute
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you could say that whenever you try to improve yourself
TOMORROW WILL BE A BETTER GIORNO you can say and everyone will believe it
jotaro is v intelligent except when he's a dumbass
as you have seen re: romance
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he had a fever at the time i think
but he let me pet his hair
he's less grumpy when he's sick which seems backwards doesn't it?
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one time he fought a stand UNDERWATER and when he came back up he STILL had his hat on
but nah i think its the only time he can let himself be
not relaxed
but kind of relaxed
not in control, maybe
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when he's with jolie or kakyoin or when we're just hanging out
or when he's teasing me
or when he's letting me see star, or being with star
or lots of other times really
i'm really proud of him you know
i think he's so strong and he works so hard all the time
i'm glad he's getting good things
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yeah
i worry about him a lot
but i think hes got it good here
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kakyoin and me and you
and star
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[wait.]
are you sad about it?
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hes not a bad guy
not even close
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i know it doesnt matter but its still stupid
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