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[digiorno]

buongiorno! sorry i missed you; i'll happily get back to you as soon as i'm done with whatever business i'm on. leave a message!

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[starmark]

Just the opposite. I'm implying that I'd have to be an asshole to go out of my way to be a disaster around you just because you said something like that.

And sometimes I'm an asshole, so.

[digiorno]

Not as often as you think you are.

. . . Um. Jotaro?

[starmark]

Yeah?

[digiorno]

I'm a little worried about having to pretend I'm just somebody you know again.

[starmark]

...Because of my great-gr

fuck it

because of Erina? Or Jiji?

[digiorno]

Yes. Both.

[starmark]

You know I'll back you up no matter what.

If you want to tell them, I'll help you.

If you want to do something else, I'll support you.

[digiorno]

I don't know. I think this is the first time in my life I've really wanted someone else to make the decision for me.

[starmark]

Then I'll tell you what I know about Jiji, at least.

He's smart, and he knows when people are keeping secrets. He knew I was messed up about one and I said a couple times that I didn't want to tell him yet, and he wasn't a dick about it but it was like he couldn't help trying to find it out anyway.

So I think for him at least, there's something to the idea of being direct with him, even if it's something he's not going to like to hear. I think he's that kind of person, who'd at least respect that someone was up-front about it, even if he didn't like what he was hearing.

[digiorno]

Well, he's definitely going to be annoyed that I was just watching him drink hot chocolate and be dramatic for several hours.

[starmark]

That's what he gets for being dramatic in public.

[digiorno]

Yes, it's definitely all his fault and not at all to do with me being nosy.

[starmark]

Still. I need to tell him about what Kakyoin and I went through with him back home, either way.

I can tell him about you, if you don't want to go through having to be there for it again.

[digiorno]

I don't know. Don't you think it's important that I do it myself? Or at least tell the parts that are mine, myself.

[starmark]

Probably. I mean...yes, it's important, there's no question about that.

But if you didn't want to have to. I mean that I would do that for you. I want you to have the choice, so it's not just something you're stuck with.

[digiorno]

. . . You're doing that more, too. Trying so hard to make sure other people have choices, as often as they can.

You don't realize how important choice is until it's taken away from you, do you.

[starmark]

...I think I hurt myself most when I think I don't have a choice. Yeah.

So I guess now I'm trying to look for them as much as possible. For other people and for myself.

[digiorno]

Il mio magnifico fratello.

What would you say, if you were the one who told him?

[starmark]

He's seen Star, so I'd start with that. Talk to him about Stands some more, talk about the one he develops. Tell him about Mom's, and how she got sick from hers, how he was there and didn't hesitate to jump up and try to do something about it.

The worst is going to be telling him about what happened to Jonathan. His body. He was so mad about it back then, I already know what to expect from it this time. But he has to know that. So I'll tell him that that's how we got our Stands, and also why we had to go after him. To help Mom.

And then I'll say...that before we went after him, Dio had been living in secret for a while. He'd met people, he'd set himself up. He'd gathered people loyal to him.

And then I guess...I guess I would say, and one of the things he did was, he fathered a son who grew up never knowing him, and because I killed him, that son never got to, and...and so that kid, he grew up on his own, never really knowing his family, so he went and found one of his own and did a lot of good, fighting for the things he believed in.

And then I'll say, and I know all of this because I've met him, he's here, and he's my brother and one of the best people I know, and anybody who's got a damn problem with that can line up to the left because to fuck with him they're going to have to get through me first.

...Something like that.

[digiorno]

. . .

If you say all of that and I'm there then I'll just cry, probably.

[starmark]

Are you crying right now?

[digiorno]

No. Not yet. It's just nice. It feels nice. You're nice to me.

[starmark]

OK.

If you want to cry on me you can.

Or if that's weird you can cry on Star while I give you space or something.

[digiorno]

I don't need space. I'm just really happy. Because there never was anybody to fight for me before, and now it seems like there are so many people who would do it without thinking twice about it. Even people who have lots of reasons to hate me, they still love me anyway.

If there's one bad thing it's that I might have forgotten a little bit how to be hated, so that if someone does I won't be as good at it as I used to be.

[starmark]

Because when someone hates you, you have to beat them. Right? You have to win, that's how you solve the problem of being hated.