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mukuro's out here hoofing it au naturale and the bug situation doesn't seem to faze her though now that i've said that i don't think i've ever heard her complain about a single thing before
i think i can also officially add this to the list of things riley's had an easier time surviving than prom
i said it's not fun, but it is relaxing, at least
[ To say nothing of the tension of things left unspoken between himself and a certain nervous redhead; his body still feels looser now than it does walking down any sidewalk in the city. ]
[Thinking about Mukuro is weird. He hasn't been, on purpose. But this is . . . well. Almost a little funny? Someone like that probably wouldn't complain.]
she seems very focused. most likely she doesn't even notice.
[And also she's been conditioned to just deal, but. Tomato, tomahto.]
i can't really imagine living somewhere that rural, but it sounds pretty at least. and peaceful. which is a contrast
she's the only person i've talked to about what happened in march, so far.
[Which, even if he hadn't before, Giorno feels Steve understands some of the gravity of now.]
i wouldn't presume to know everything about her, but we talk about things that are . . . sometimes hard to talk to other people about? if that makes any sense.
[ Riley was the one who warned him that "Haruno" was a touchy subject, so it stands to reason that Giorno must have clued her into that himself. ]
i know what her family was like
she's been going out of her way to be honest with me since, yeah since march
if she never said anything else i would've thought i had the whole story, but right after all that trouble on the network she messaged me to say there was something she wasn't telling me. we agreed on a time and place to talk about it, but thanks to last week we haven't exactly gotten around to it yet.
it involves two of her teammates.
[ So, if you happen to know anything about that, Giogio— ]
no, i don't want you to give her the laptop! i just
[Ugh. Why is everything so hard to explain.]
i thought she would have told you because she trusts you more than anything or anyone. even me, because i'm very like her in a lot of ways, and that's good for some things, but she doesn't trust herself. you're you.
i'm frustrated because she should have told you ages and ages ago, but she still thinks everyone's going to leave as soon as they find out. it doesn't matter who she's thinking of telling or even if she's talked with them about it before. her reaction is always essentially the same. but waiting so long makes it seem like she doesn't trust you, and even though that's not true, it's not fair to y
[ Maybe reading this should fill him with more dismay, disappointment, something, but if he's understanding this correctly... then the reason it bothers Giorno so much that he's writing paragraphs about it is in part because of him, because he hasn't received what he believes is the right treatment.
And, well. It's nice. That this is all being considered in at least one nymph's big flowery head, even if he doesn't feel particularly slighted by whatever's going on. ]
ok, not to steal your line but this is helping
i thought i was doing her a favor by giving her more time. to relax, and maybe work up the nerve to talk about it again on her own. but this is riley
she's never going to be ready. or at least not what i'm thinking of as being ready either she's going to start blurting stuff out like she did the first time, completely out of the blue because she felt like she had no choice or she's going to continue stressing about it the same exact amount forever
[This is helping, he says, and some of the anxiety unclenches from his chest. Not all of it, not by a long shot, but he feels better for not having made things worse, at least. Better still when he realizes that Steve gets it. He really, honestly does.]
yes i think that's exactly right she'll always find a reason to put it off. a reason why it's the wrong time, or why she shouldn't talk about it at all, or why it doesn't really matter, and so on. not because she wants to lie but because she's scared so
you have to be the first one to say something
for now. i hope not forever for her. it's an unpleasant feeling, being trapped in your own thoughts like that
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on second thought, to spare naem
i wouldn't want to make anyone worry
[ He's done enough of that. ]
mukuro's out here hoofing it au naturale and the bug situation doesn't seem to faze her
though now that i've said that i don't think i've ever heard her complain about a single thing before
i think i can also officially add this to the list of things riley's had an easier time surviving than prom
i said it's not fun, but it is relaxing, at least
[ To say nothing of the tension of things left unspoken between himself and a certain nervous redhead; his body still feels looser now than it does walking down any sidewalk in the city. ]
my house used to be surrounded by woods like this
good thought
she seems very focused. most likely she doesn't even notice.
[And also she's been conditioned to just deal, but. Tomato, tomahto.]
i can't really imagine living somewhere that rural, but it sounds pretty at least. and peaceful. which is a contrast
is everything okay? with riley
[She's doing the Riley thing lately.]
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If he had to be forthcoming with anyone about what's going on between him and Riley, he would choose Giorno. ]
how close are you guys? like how much has she told you about her life back home?
[ He has a feeling it's very. Just a feeling, but getting some clarification is never a bad idea. ]
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she's the only person i've talked to about what happened in march, so far.
[Which, even if he hadn't before, Giorno feels Steve understands some of the gravity of now.]
i wouldn't presume to know everything about her, but we talk about things that are . . . sometimes hard to talk to other people about? if that makes any sense.
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[ Riley was the one who warned him that "Haruno" was a touchy subject, so it stands to reason that Giorno must have clued her into that himself. ]
i know what her family was like
she's been going out of her way to be honest with me since, yeah
since march
if she never said anything else i would've thought i had the whole story, but right after all that trouble on the network she messaged me to say there was something she wasn't telling me.
we agreed on a time and place to talk about it, but thanks to last week we haven't exactly gotten around to it yet.
it involves two of her teammates.
[ So, if you happen to know anything about that, Giogio— ]
that could be what's on her mind
all that kid stuff in general, too
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[As a matter of fact, if he had a nickel for every time it happened, he'd have two nickels as of right now this moment.]
you're kidding me.
[RILEY WHAT THE FUCK IT IS ALMOST OCTOBER]
why would she not have told you? that's ridiculous. i thought she told you first.
[This is absurd. Oh, he's mad. Riley, you have got to stop doing this to yourself!!]
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?
i don't know?
do you want me to give her the laptop?
[ Joking. He's joking. He's only about 10% serious, but that is technically something he's physically capable of doing right now. ]
she seemed like she was panicking when she brought it up
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[Ugh. Why is everything so hard to explain.]
i thought she would have told you because she trusts you more than anything or anyone. even me, because i'm very like her in a lot of ways, and that's good for some things, but she doesn't trust herself. you're you.
i'm frustrated because she should have told you ages and ages ago, but she still thinks everyone's going to leave as soon as they find out. it doesn't matter who she's thinking of telling or even if she's talked with them about it before. her reaction is always essentially the same. but waiting so long makes it seem like she doesn't trust you, and even though that's not true, it's not fair to y
[Record scratch. Wait, this isn't — fuck.]
sorry. that wasn't helpful. this isn't about me.
how can i help?
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And, well. It's nice. That this is all being considered in at least one nymph's big flowery head, even if he doesn't feel particularly slighted by whatever's going on. ]
ok, not to steal your line
but this is helping
i thought i was doing her a favor by giving her more time. to relax, and maybe work up the nerve to talk about it again on her own.
but this is riley
she's never going to be ready. or at least not what i'm thinking of as being ready
either she's going to start blurting stuff out like she did the first time, completely out of the blue because she felt like she had no choice
or she's going to continue stressing about it the same exact amount forever
i have to be the first one to say something
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yes
i think that's exactly right
she'll always find a reason to put it off. a reason why it's the wrong time, or why she shouldn't talk about it at all, or why it doesn't really matter, and so on. not because she wants to lie but because she's scared
so
you have to be the first one to say something
for now. i hope not forever for her. it's an unpleasant feeling, being trapped in your own thoughts like that