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no, i don't want you to give her the laptop! i just
[Ugh. Why is everything so hard to explain.]
i thought she would have told you because she trusts you more than anything or anyone. even me, because i'm very like her in a lot of ways, and that's good for some things, but she doesn't trust herself. you're you.
i'm frustrated because she should have told you ages and ages ago, but she still thinks everyone's going to leave as soon as they find out. it doesn't matter who she's thinking of telling or even if she's talked with them about it before. her reaction is always essentially the same. but waiting so long makes it seem like she doesn't trust you, and even though that's not true, it's not fair to y
[ Maybe reading this should fill him with more dismay, disappointment, something, but if he's understanding this correctly... then the reason it bothers Giorno so much that he's writing paragraphs about it is in part because of him, because he hasn't received what he believes is the right treatment.
And, well. It's nice. That this is all being considered in at least one nymph's big flowery head, even if he doesn't feel particularly slighted by whatever's going on. ]
ok, not to steal your line but this is helping
i thought i was doing her a favor by giving her more time. to relax, and maybe work up the nerve to talk about it again on her own. but this is riley
she's never going to be ready. or at least not what i'm thinking of as being ready either she's going to start blurting stuff out like she did the first time, completely out of the blue because she felt like she had no choice or she's going to continue stressing about it the same exact amount forever
[This is helping, he says, and some of the anxiety unclenches from his chest. Not all of it, not by a long shot, but he feels better for not having made things worse, at least. Better still when he realizes that Steve gets it. He really, honestly does.]
yes i think that's exactly right she'll always find a reason to put it off. a reason why it's the wrong time, or why she shouldn't talk about it at all, or why it doesn't really matter, and so on. not because she wants to lie but because she's scared so
you have to be the first one to say something
for now. i hope not forever for her. it's an unpleasant feeling, being trapped in your own thoughts like that
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[Ugh. Why is everything so hard to explain.]
i thought she would have told you because she trusts you more than anything or anyone. even me, because i'm very like her in a lot of ways, and that's good for some things, but she doesn't trust herself. you're you.
i'm frustrated because she should have told you ages and ages ago, but she still thinks everyone's going to leave as soon as they find out. it doesn't matter who she's thinking of telling or even if she's talked with them about it before. her reaction is always essentially the same. but waiting so long makes it seem like she doesn't trust you, and even though that's not true, it's not fair to y
[Record scratch. Wait, this isn't — fuck.]
sorry. that wasn't helpful. this isn't about me.
how can i help?
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And, well. It's nice. That this is all being considered in at least one nymph's big flowery head, even if he doesn't feel particularly slighted by whatever's going on. ]
ok, not to steal your line
but this is helping
i thought i was doing her a favor by giving her more time. to relax, and maybe work up the nerve to talk about it again on her own.
but this is riley
she's never going to be ready. or at least not what i'm thinking of as being ready
either she's going to start blurting stuff out like she did the first time, completely out of the blue because she felt like she had no choice
or she's going to continue stressing about it the same exact amount forever
i have to be the first one to say something
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yes
i think that's exactly right
she'll always find a reason to put it off. a reason why it's the wrong time, or why she shouldn't talk about it at all, or why it doesn't really matter, and so on. not because she wants to lie but because she's scared
so
you have to be the first one to say something
for now. i hope not forever for her. it's an unpleasant feeling, being trapped in your own thoughts like that