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ouch. what an oversight, I'm off my game.
[Jin chuckles quietly, but the noise is enough to make Asher stir a little. There's a pause in his messages as he falls back into silence, rubs Asher's back reassuringly, in an effort to lull him into sleep again for just a little longer.]
I have to go though, he's starting to wake up.
uh
Thanks for talking to me, Giorno.
if anything else happens, well, I know who to go to.
[Jin chuckles quietly, but the noise is enough to make Asher stir a little. There's a pause in his messages as he falls back into silence, rubs Asher's back reassuringly, in an effort to lull him into sleep again for just a little longer.]
I have to go though, he's starting to wake up.
uh
Thanks for talking to me, Giorno.
if anything else happens, well, I know who to go to.
for the most part, yes. People got infected and hurt, but I don't think any children were killed, thank the gods.
[he's watchin out for u and ur boy giogio. and doesnt get the 4 thing, but o well.
also, he sends his coordinates via magitek; he's moving, heading back to his apartment, which is fortunately not too far from where Giogio is, either.]
I'll wait for you outside?
[he's watchin out for u and ur boy giogio. and doesnt get the 4 thing, but o well.
also, he sends his coordinates via magitek; he's moving, heading back to his apartment, which is fortunately not too far from where Giogio is, either.]
I'll wait for you outside?
[There's something warm and soothing about this logic. The all-or-nothing-ness of it. It feels like home. It feels like someone used to making difficult decisions. And Giorno just--]
[He's grateful. He's very grateful for Kaz, as infuriating as he can be. It's so meaningful, and so unexpected, to have someone who understands in this way.]
I think you're right, [he says eventually, quietly.] I think that none of us can know the kind of torture it is to live with those memories. Not just of those acts, but the feeling. Of being so--not yourself. It's cruel. And not everyone can be saved. And choosing to waffle is going to get people killed.
[He's tired of this argument. Some people have never had to make hard choices. Some days, he hates them.]
I think--your judgment, overall, is impeccable.
[Giorno sighs.]
Thank you. I admit to some frustration. It seems as though ALASTAIR is parceling out information about Zymandis in an incredibly unhelpful way. And I don't trust them. I'd very much like to access them and ask a few personal probing questions, which as a fixation is in this moment also very unhelpful, but nonetheless.
Nonetheless. Fuck this.
[He's grateful. He's very grateful for Kaz, as infuriating as he can be. It's so meaningful, and so unexpected, to have someone who understands in this way.]
I think you're right, [he says eventually, quietly.] I think that none of us can know the kind of torture it is to live with those memories. Not just of those acts, but the feeling. Of being so--not yourself. It's cruel. And not everyone can be saved. And choosing to waffle is going to get people killed.
[He's tired of this argument. Some people have never had to make hard choices. Some days, he hates them.]
I think--your judgment, overall, is impeccable.
[Giorno sighs.]
Thank you. I admit to some frustration. It seems as though ALASTAIR is parceling out information about Zymandis in an incredibly unhelpful way. And I don't trust them. I'd very much like to access them and ask a few personal probing questions, which as a fixation is in this moment also very unhelpful, but nonetheless.
Nonetheless. Fuck this.
got it
[And: Giorno gets moving. Quickly. He's far past the speed limit in his (stolen) (very stolen) Ferrari when he screeches to a halt in front of Jin's apartment, braking with deliberate aggression.]
[Beep beep motherfuckers.]
Take a drive with me.
[And: Giorno gets moving. Quickly. He's far past the speed limit in his (stolen) (very stolen) Ferrari when he screeches to a halt in front of Jin's apartment, braking with deliberate aggression.]
[Beep beep motherfuckers.]
Take a drive with me.
[1) he was 100% not expecting the (stolen) (VERY STOLEN) Ferrari
2) giorno he didn't even get to his apartment what the fuck]
Where the hell did y--
[CLOSES HIS EYES.]
Never mind. [he's just gonna get into the gatdamn ferrari, like. this is his life now he guesses]
2) giorno he didn't even get to his apartment what the fuck]
Where the hell did y--
[CLOSES HIS EYES.]
Never mind. [he's just gonna get into the gatdamn ferrari, like. this is his life now he guesses]
oh! uh
[screaming, sweating, panicking
Jin definitely mumbles Asher's name sometimes.]
i dunno, he just goes on and on
like, you know how babies say all this random shiz and it doesn't rly make any sense? like that
[screaming, sweating, panicking
Jin definitely mumbles Asher's name sometimes.]
i dunno, he just goes on and on
like, you know how babies say all this random shiz and it doesn't rly make any sense? like that
[He definitely noticed that pause, and he's unsure what to make of it. Saying things "just to be polite" is not a social skill Sai possesses at this juncture, nor is the concept of being uncomfortable with something and offering to do it anyway--the latter, of course, largely because his training was specifically intended to avoid the latter scenario.]
thank you
[And because Sai is a person who is still new to concepts of friendship and caring, and who has attempted to supplant the gaps in his knowledge with books -- sometimes he still treats friendships more like alliances. and so:]
i have composed a detailed map of the city for my personal usage because of this as well
if you would like, i could share it with you
[information is valuable, after all. and he is requesting something of importance from giorno, here. so it only makes sense that he'd have something to offer in return, right?]
thank you
[And because Sai is a person who is still new to concepts of friendship and caring, and who has attempted to supplant the gaps in his knowledge with books -- sometimes he still treats friendships more like alliances. and so:]
i have composed a detailed map of the city for my personal usage because of this as well
if you would like, i could share it with you
[information is valuable, after all. and he is requesting something of importance from giorno, here. so it only makes sense that he'd have something to offer in return, right?]
Trust is a hard won prize and they've done nothing to deserve it.
[there's more here he could comment on, of course, but he doesn't. doesn't thank him for the praise or say anything further about his own frustrations. it's not that there isn't more to say, or that he's done talking to giorno -- rather, the opposite. he's said his piece and the next best move is listening.
and, perhaps, there's another, more complex part to it. he hadn't come to giorno with his thoughts about ALASTAIR and Zymandis. The people he'd picked to share his thoughts - his concerns (though had he done the sharing? or only the questioning?) had ended up yielding little more than a need to reassess. why hadn't he come to giorno first? giorno, who clearly understood?
but then again maybe that understanding was the reason. or maybe part of him is still trying to compete with giorno. maybe, maybe, maybe.
so the fact that giorno brings up, of his own violation, the exact thing that in other conversations had disappointed him so greatly is a breath of fresh air. getting close to giorno is definitely a mistake. but there are times it seems a rather attractive one.]
[there's more here he could comment on, of course, but he doesn't. doesn't thank him for the praise or say anything further about his own frustrations. it's not that there isn't more to say, or that he's done talking to giorno -- rather, the opposite. he's said his piece and the next best move is listening.
and, perhaps, there's another, more complex part to it. he hadn't come to giorno with his thoughts about ALASTAIR and Zymandis. The people he'd picked to share his thoughts - his concerns (though had he done the sharing? or only the questioning?) had ended up yielding little more than a need to reassess. why hadn't he come to giorno first? giorno, who clearly understood?
but then again maybe that understanding was the reason. or maybe part of him is still trying to compete with giorno. maybe, maybe, maybe.
so the fact that giorno brings up, of his own violation, the exact thing that in other conversations had disappointed him so greatly is a breath of fresh air. getting close to giorno is definitely a mistake. but there are times it seems a rather attractive one.]
[He is.]
I never hear the end of it, gorgeous. But I'll add the compliment to the pile.
:3
I never hear the end of it, gorgeous. But I'll add the compliment to the pile.
:3
[Sai almost doesn't message Giorno. Hesitates for quite some time, in fact. It's a waste of time, impractical, pointless ... and yet, it continues to needle at him, not least because he's still in Naruto's apartment, and he can't think of any logical reason why. It's true what he had said about it being wise to consolidate their forces, but they aren't currently fighting. They weren't particularly making or planning to make any kind of tactical maneuver at all, which more or less invalidates the necessity of proximity.
Even less logically - he isn't guarding the quarantine. There are others, of course; his presence is far from required, but the fact of the matter remains.
And when he searches for an explanation, he keeps coming back to what Giorno had said, earlier in the mall. Was it worry, after all? Though Sai is familiar with uncertainty, with concerns about the completion of a mission or of objectives, worry is an entirely different animal. What did it feel like, to worry? Is that what he was experiencing now, why he felt the urge to find Naruto? Why he couldn't bring himself to leave, afterward?
Eventually, he requests to use Naruto's shower -- claims the plumbing in his building was damaged by the infected, and turns on the water ... before he sits on the ledge of the tub, sifts through contact info in his jewelcomm, and finds Giorno's.
If Sai understood the concept of embarrassment, it's probably what he would be feeling right now. Instead, there's just a vague discomfort as he thinks his message. Ever the pragmatist, of course, he doesn't begin with his question. Instead:]
are you currently in a defensible location?
[translation: do u have a minute 2 chat]
Even less logically - he isn't guarding the quarantine. There are others, of course; his presence is far from required, but the fact of the matter remains.
And when he searches for an explanation, he keeps coming back to what Giorno had said, earlier in the mall. Was it worry, after all? Though Sai is familiar with uncertainty, with concerns about the completion of a mission or of objectives, worry is an entirely different animal. What did it feel like, to worry? Is that what he was experiencing now, why he felt the urge to find Naruto? Why he couldn't bring himself to leave, afterward?
Eventually, he requests to use Naruto's shower -- claims the plumbing in his building was damaged by the infected, and turns on the water ... before he sits on the ledge of the tub, sifts through contact info in his jewelcomm, and finds Giorno's.
If Sai understood the concept of embarrassment, it's probably what he would be feeling right now. Instead, there's just a vague discomfort as he thinks his message. Ever the pragmatist, of course, he doesn't begin with his question. Instead:]
are you currently in a defensible location?
[translation: do u have a minute 2 chat]
[It would be an odd question from most other people--most especially from civilians. But Sai is not a civilian, and as such the question even in all its formality gives Giorno a certain measure of comfort in the midst of this chaos. It even makes him smile, the tiniest ghost of an expression as he reads the message and answers--honestly for once, even.]
yes, i am. all clear. what is it?
yes, i am. all clear. what is it?
[He's unsure where to start, really. How does he ask a question about something when he can't even quite formulate the problem properly?
After a moment, the reply arrives. It's slightly tangential to what he really wants to understand, but he thinks perhaps if he understands Giorno's behaviors, he might better understand his own. Giorno might be among the only recruits capable of understanding him, after all.]
at the mall, you said that it was standard to worry about one's friends during a crisis situation
but i was the only one you wanted to check in on
why?
After a moment, the reply arrives. It's slightly tangential to what he really wants to understand, but he thinks perhaps if he understands Giorno's behaviors, he might better understand his own. Giorno might be among the only recruits capable of understanding him, after all.]
at the mall, you said that it was standard to worry about one's friends during a crisis situation
but i was the only one you wanted to check in on
why?
Edited 2017-04-10 11:33 (UTC)
oh
i would appreciate that, if you don't mind
[It's easier to--deal with this particular thing in this particular way. He wasn't lying when he told Sai he isn't good at friendships. He really, really isn't. Sometimes he has to fall back on what's familiar: that give and take, that nothing for nothing.]
[It makes this feel less like he's giving part of himself away.]
perhaps we could meet and exchange information at that time
i know there's an assignment due soon? tomorrow or the next day
so if you need help with that
i would appreciate that, if you don't mind
[It's easier to--deal with this particular thing in this particular way. He wasn't lying when he told Sai he isn't good at friendships. He really, really isn't. Sometimes he has to fall back on what's familiar: that give and take, that nothing for nothing.]
[It makes this feel less like he's giving part of himself away.]
perhaps we could meet and exchange information at that time
i know there's an assignment due soon? tomorrow or the next day
so if you need help with that
[Oh. That's an interesting question, certainly. But part of the conditions of this arrangement, unspoken though they may be, are that he isn't going to criticize or question Sai's lines of reasoning or his questions. It's possible that Sai wouldn't feel discouraged by it, but it's also possible that he would, so Giorno prefers to err on the side of safety.]
i suppose that's because i had my most important people besides you with me already
jin and fugo and i came together
jin i knew was safe, i knew where he was
and fugo stayed with me the whole time
he's the one i'd have been most worried about, but i didn't have to be, since he was right there
does that make sense?
i suppose that's because i had my most important people besides you with me already
jin and fugo and i came together
jin i knew was safe, i knew where he was
and fugo stayed with me the whole time
he's the one i'd have been most worried about, but i didn't have to be, since he was right there
does that make sense?
[It does make sense, which is the entire problem. Sai can't find anything illogical about that reasoning, nothing that would point to sentiment rather than efficiency, which leaves him back at square one.]
did the three of you return to your residences together, or did you part ways after escaping the mall?
[A second attempt. He is going somewhere with this, though it might not be immediately obvious where. It might even seem like he's prying, which would be especially strange; in the time Sai has known Giorno, he has never done such a thing. It's always been an exchange of sorts--an ability for an ability, that first time, information for information, assistance for assistance.]
did the three of you return to your residences together, or did you part ways after escaping the mall?
[A second attempt. He is going somewhere with this, though it might not be immediately obvious where. It might even seem like he's prying, which would be especially strange; in the time Sai has known Giorno, he has never done such a thing. It's always been an exchange of sorts--an ability for an ability, that first time, information for information, assistance for assistance.]
oh, no
[It's a response that, even through text, shows a surprising amount of visceral discomfort. Just the idea makes Giorno a little afraid--the idea of leaving them to their own devices after something like that.]
we made sure jin got home safe, and inside
but fugo and i went home together like always
and even if we weren't in the same apartment anyway, i don't think i could've left him alone after that
i would want to make sure he was all right
[It's a response that, even through text, shows a surprising amount of visceral discomfort. Just the idea makes Giorno a little afraid--the idea of leaving them to their own devices after something like that.]
we made sure jin got home safe, and inside
but fugo and i went home together like always
and even if we weren't in the same apartment anyway, i don't think i could've left him alone after that
i would want to make sure he was all right
[oh --
is that it? maybe. he's not yet good at parsing the emotional resonances in text communications, even with the extra telepathic touch the jewelry has.
sai hesitates, then:]
is that what you meant, then? by ... worrying, sometimes for no reason? even though you escaped safely ....
[...]
[It might be obvious, by now, that there's more to this than an unresolved curiosity from their conversation that was interrupted by Zombie Time. A few more beats pass, and then he adds:]
naruto and i returned to our respective apartments individually after our escape
then later, i decided to find him
and then i remained there, while he slept
[The messages each come with delays, as if he's struggling to arrange his thoughts in a meaningful way. His communications are usually so precise, efficient, to the point, but these seem -- fragmented. scattered. whispers of thought on the wind, thrown this way and that by forces out of his control.]
he was ... confused by my presence, when he woke
[and so, that touch of psychic imprint with the text connotes, was he, when called on it]
is that it? maybe. he's not yet good at parsing the emotional resonances in text communications, even with the extra telepathic touch the jewelry has.
sai hesitates, then:]
is that what you meant, then? by ... worrying, sometimes for no reason? even though you escaped safely ....
[...]
[It might be obvious, by now, that there's more to this than an unresolved curiosity from their conversation that was interrupted by Zombie Time. A few more beats pass, and then he adds:]
naruto and i returned to our respective apartments individually after our escape
then later, i decided to find him
and then i remained there, while he slept
[The messages each come with delays, as if he's struggling to arrange his thoughts in a meaningful way. His communications are usually so precise, efficient, to the point, but these seem -- fragmented. scattered. whispers of thought on the wind, thrown this way and that by forces out of his control.]
he was ... confused by my presence, when he woke
[and so, that touch of psychic imprint with the text connotes, was he, when called on it]
Edited (weird random line break) 2017-04-12 08:08 (UTC)
something like that, yes
when are you available?
when are you available?
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