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[digiorno]

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[digiorno]

yours because if you talk to him with real actual words and put some thought behind them he won't be upset

he'll just say "okay" or "no i don't want to" and that will be that either way

but you have to actually talk to him, face to face, not over these things, because that way he'll be able to tell you're serious and not just fucking around

which i know you wouldn't but he's kakyoin

[starmark]

yeah

i should do it that way anyway BECAUSE i like text better

so if he can take a big step like that and wear a dress then i should be able to take one and do something like that in person instead of just what makes me feel safe

[digiorno]

that's very noble but no

sorry jotaro but it's not about who can make the grander gesture, it's about talking to each other

if it were something where the only way to do it was to talk over text and that was the best option then that's what you should do. this just doesn't happen to be that situation.

[starmark]

i wasn't thinking of it as a gesture. more like...trying to meet halfway. or something.

but i get what you're saying. i'm focusing on the wrong thing, either way, when i need to be focusing on the part about talking.

and saying what i want, so that he can understand me too. right?

[digiorno]

that's right

you're very clever but you're not as good at talking as he is, so you have to make a little extra effort

i'm not saying you can't do it, you very much can, i'm just saying, as you said, you have to be focused on it

[starmark]

yeah.

i'll make sure to think about it and i don't know maybe practice a little so i don't get stuck looking for words. but i'll set myself a limit too so i don't just practice forever and never do anything.

[digiorno]

i'll help you practice if you want. unless that would make it harder, which is valid i suppose. i'm not as nice to you as kakyoin is.

[starmark]

can you help me figure out how to get into the topic to start with

i don't want to just be blunt and blurt things out like i usually do. so a way in would be good to start with i think.

[digiorno]

hmm

well what do you usually talk about when it's just the two of you

[starmark]

um...

well, our stands

stuff we did today

you

dumb things jiji did

dumb things polnareff did

[digiorno]

you are so cute

okay well don't start off with talking about your grandfather i don't think that would go over well or even make sense

. . . how do you talk about hierophant? when you talk about him with kakyoin, i mean

[starmark]

...well, sometimes i'll say hey, are you busy, can i see hierophant

and he'll usually say sure and then bring him out

and then i'll kind of get tangled up in his coils and unwind and relax or whatever, because it's easier to do that when hierophant is all around me

and then sometimes i kiss him. hierophant, i mean

and then i guess i just say what i'm feeling, if i end up feeling something? like that i like him, or whatever

[digiorno]

see this is where i wonder if i'm actually very helpful

because when i talk about hierophant i talk about how he's clever and beautiful and powerful and dangerous, and from there you could talk about the rest of it

but we really don't talk at all alike

[thank you captain obvious]

[starmark]

...no but that does give me an idea

since what i want to talk to him about is sort of about clothes

i can get into it with clothes, and then just say...also here's what i thought about your clothes. maybe that will work

[digiorno]

there you go

see just do the opposite of whatever i would do and you will be authentically jotaro

[starmark]

you make a good mirror, giornetto

it's easier to see myself through you

[digiorno]

what

that's cute too

oh

goddamnit jotaro

[starmark]

are you embarrassed again

oh no i fucked up

[digiorno]

don't act like you're sorry!!

anyway i'm not

i mean i am but also

i guess um

. . .

i've sort of felt disconnected lately, from home and from all the things i'm supposed to do at home, and all my dreams

so it's nice to know that i can still be that for people

a good mirror

i want to be that, a mirror to show everyone their best selves, the selves they can learn to love even if it's terribly difficult

[starmark]

the selves they can learn to love?

[digiorno]

i suppose it might be better to say

the parts of themselves that they love the best

around those parts, people can build love for the rest

like cell division

building and building, forever

[starmark]

...do you think we've switched places a little bit, almost?

so, mirrors again

your dreams are at home and you've been away from them, and that makes it hard on you

i didn't have any dreams at home and only started building once i was here, so now this is where most of mine are

...

if i can ever be for you what you've been to me, i would like that a lot

[digiorno]

oh but

you already are?

i mean, you're not wrong either, i miss home, i miss mista and trish and everyone, even fugo sometimes

i miss the work, i get so bored here sometimes

but i wouldn't give this up for anything

getting to know polnareff back when he was happy, getting to know kakyoin, he feels like part of my heart now

and all of you . . . having family alongside my famiglia

i think being here makes me

no

knowing you makes me less hollow

like my heart is growing back again, slowly but surely

[starmark]

il cerchio di sostegno è un recinto intorno al giardino in cui il vostro cuore cresce.

that's not bad, for a family proverb.

[digiorno]

that's so LONG

but i like it