[He did like it, actually, quite a bit. He's still a bit young for children-- twenty-two, and he knows he wants kids, but not quite yet-- and yet that had been enjoyable. It'd been fun, to have someone to care for, to spoil and tease and play with. Even cooking for him-- Giorno, Haruno, whomever-- had been enjoyable.]
but we dont have to talk about it i mean i know im not actually your dad im not
[I'm not trying to impose on your real father, who is Dio, so fuck that, he'll always impose on Dio.]
it's okay it's not bad!! i liked it too i just am not really like that at all ever so it's strange to think about and the only person i felt even a little bit like that towards was jonathan and hes gone now and i didn't know how to do THAT anyway and im not haruno anymore!!!!!!! but it's fine its okay its fine papa its fine dont worry
jonathan dio sort of my stepfather sort of but i told him if he ever came near me i'd break his legs carlos acts sort of fatherish but i'm not sure because i don't really know how these things work and bruno maybe
[Three of these five are acceptable, he supposes. Jonathan definitely is, he doesn't know a thing about Carlos, and while he's somewhat annoyed at Bruno, Polnareff at least realizes it's somewhat undeserved.]
well six isn't so bad i think fathers work the way you want them to i mean theres no guide to it like oh yes he fulfills these three points therefore he's fatherlike
thats not how it works first off if someone else needs a dad they can have it love doesn't get weaker just because it spreads around second off you're allowed to have as many as you want and need
i know! but it's just i don't know it's complicated
there's famiglia and that's bruno and izabel and dio and all the people who were with me and left and then there's family and that's you and jotaro and kakyoin and mrs kujo and jonathan when he was here but i don't know if i should be part of both or in the middle? and i don't know how to be anyone's son i just don't know how to be that
[All right. Best to take each of these point by point.]
1. its complicated but thats life i think. families and friends and all of it is complicated. 2. you can be whatever you want. and i dont mean that as a blowoff, i mean: you can be as much a part of it as you want. i know some people who'd hate to be part of something they felt they weren't, like who'd hate me saying OH CALL ME PAPA because they'd think i was being stupid. which i wasn't but.
my point is you can think "i'm part of both, in both", or you can think "im in the middle", and I think everybody would be okay with it. mrs kujo is pretty great about being nice to everyone, and kakyoin--
I mean, he doesn't like his real parents at all. but that doesn't mean he doesn't have family-- he just found it in other people. in me and you and jotaro.
3. you just have to be its like i said before all you have to do is be you theres no script or guide or whatever to being somebodys son or brother or whatever you just you're there for the person, and do right by them, and thats that
[He frowns at all this before sending it out, unsure if he made his point successfully or not. After a moment:] youre somebody's son when they look out for you and you can come to them for comfort if you need it
[That actually helps. A lot, he thinks, and decides not to respond point by point because Polnareff asked him another question and he never answered it.]
it was my name before when i was born that was the name on my birth certificate first name haruno last name shiobana they changed it when we moved but i didn't understand why for a long time i liked my old name it means different things but all of them are about blooming and spring and new beginnings
um yes i think so not because i like it better i just don't want to explain to everyone kakyoin knows because i told him and jotaro found out and bruno knows but i don't know not everybody should know
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i liked it
[He did like it, actually, quite a bit. He's still a bit young for children-- twenty-two, and he knows he wants kids, but not quite yet-- and yet that had been enjoyable. It'd been fun, to have someone to care for, to spoil and tease and play with. Even cooking for him-- Giorno, Haruno, whomever-- had been enjoyable.]
but we dont have to talk about it
i mean i know im not actually your dad im not
[I'm not trying to impose on your real father, who is Dio, so fuck that, he'll always impose on Dio.]
it was just nice that's all
[GOD SAVE HIM FROM THIS hrhghrg]
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am not really like that at all ever so it's strange to think about and the only person i felt even a little bit like that towards was jonathan and hes gone now and i didn't know how to do THAT anyway
and im not haruno anymore!!!!!!!
but it's fine its okay
its fine papa its fine dont worry
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done!
[that's it, that's the only message back, and my god it's so delighted. Which! Just to be sure Giorno knows that:]
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seriously this is great
if you're okay with it you will DEFINITELY be my son
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but then you said be my son
WHICH IS IT
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is what i meant
but yes be my son, as in, yes be my son.
[That last one probably didn't need clarification, but here we are.]
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how many fathers am i allowed to have legally
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dio sort of
my stepfather sort of but i told him if he ever came near me i'd break his legs
carlos acts sort of fatherish but i'm not sure because i don't really know how these things work
and bruno maybe
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well six isn't so bad
i think fathers work the way you want them to
i mean theres no guide to it
like oh yes he fulfills these three points therefore he's fatherlike
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thats not how it works
first off if someone else needs a dad they can have it
love doesn't get weaker just because it spreads around
second off you're allowed to have as many as you want and need
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i didn't know that
sorry
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i dont know my point is you can have as many as you want
including me
i mean thats how siblings work
they dont love the first kid any less just because the second comes along
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i know i don't run out of love but it always seemed like it was different in families
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some families maybe
but i think in the best ones the love just grows
jotaro told me about circles
about all of us in a circle
infinite points, right?
father or not, you know you have a family here, right?
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i don't know it's complicated
there's famiglia and that's bruno and izabel and dio and all the people who were with me and left
and then there's family and that's you and jotaro and kakyoin and mrs kujo and jonathan when he was here
but i don't know if i should be part of both or in the middle? and i don't know how to be anyone's son i just don't know how to be that
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1. its complicated but thats life i think. families and friends and all of it is complicated.
2. you can be whatever you want. and i dont mean that as a blowoff, i mean: you can be as much a part of it as you want. i know some people who'd hate to be part of something they felt they weren't, like who'd hate me saying OH CALL ME PAPA because they'd think i was being stupid. which i wasn't but.
my point is you can think "i'm part of both, in both", or you can think "im in the middle", and I think everybody would be okay with it. mrs kujo is pretty great about being nice to everyone, and kakyoin--
I mean, he doesn't like his real parents at all. but that doesn't mean he doesn't have family-- he just found it in other people. in me and you and jotaro.
3. you just have to be
its like i said before
all you have to do is be you
theres no script or guide or whatever to being somebodys son or brother or whatever
you just
you're there for the person, and do right by them, and thats that
[He frowns at all this before sending it out, unsure if he made his point successfully or not. After a moment:]
youre somebody's son when they look out for you
and you can come to them for comfort if you need it
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[That actually helps. A lot, he thinks, and decides not to respond point by point because Polnareff asked him another question and he never answered it.]
it was my name before
when i was born that was the name on my birth certificate
first name haruno last name shiobana
they changed it when we moved but i didn't understand why for a long time
i liked my old name
it means different things but all of them are about blooming and spring and
new beginnings
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i like it
it's nice
i like giorno too
do you want to keep being called giorno?
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yes i think so
not because i like it better i just don't want to explain to everyone
kakyoin knows because i told him and jotaro found out and bruno knows but
i don't know
not everybody should know
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