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[digiorno]

buongiorno! sorry i missed you; i'll happily get back to you as soon as i'm done with whatever business i'm on. leave a message!

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[digiorno]

Why?

[starmark]

Because sometimes people do dumb shit when they're upset, and being around somebody tends to help.

I got pissed off but that doesn't mean I want to see her run off and get attacked by a kelpie or something.

[digiorno]

I don't think it was dumb. It felt very calculated.

[starmark]

I know I took a cheap shot. I'm not going to pretend like I was right to do it.

[digiorno]

It's not my business whether you pretend one thing or another, in this case. She's my friend and she needed me, so I was there, in the same way I'd be there for you if you needed me.

It was just disappointing, that's all. But maybe you don't understand. Maybe you can't. I really don't know, Jotaro, honestly.

[starmark]

Like I said. I think it's good she ended up with you.

There is something I want to tell you about. It doesn't have to be now.

[digiorno]

I'd prefer if it were now, please.

[starmark]

Okay.

It was when we were in the library and she wanted me to look up words for her. She got what she wanted and started to leave, and I told her to come back because she hadn't talked to me about anything but you. So then I found out she can pack a bag to last her a month.

I don't know how to phrase this to make it come out right. But when she doesn't do shit that pisses me off, it feels like we get somewhere.

[digiorno]

That's generally how positive interactions work.

[No, dude, that isn't helpful. Okay.]

It's because she's lonely. She expects that she has to behave in certain ways to keep from being lonely. I'm not saying it's right. All I'm saying is that she does it because she doesn't know any other way to do it. She doesn't have that instinct.

[starmark]

I don't know what she wants from me.

...No, I mean. I know what she wants, she wants to figure out how to be my friend. I get that. I just can't figure out what she thinks that's going to be founded on.

She doesn't know any other way to do it. So you're saying she keeps doing the same thing over and over, figuring that maybe one time something will be different?

[digiorno]

Yes. Because the difference between her and me is that she figured out how to WANT to be friends without any kind of outside intervention.

[starmark]

The difference between her and you is that I know who you are and what you believe in. Even when Polnareff was annoying and pissed me off, I at least knew that much about him.

With her it's just this person who claims to want something really bad and then does all the wrong things toward getting it.

[digiorno]

All right. I think I understand. But Jotaro, this is hard for me. It doesn't come automatically like some things do. So if I think I understand but I really don't, will you tell me?

[starmark]

...Yeah. I will.

I'm going to try and sort it out with her myself in a couple of days, I'm just going to take some time to think first. I'm not just going to leave things at this, though.

[digiorno]

I think that's a good idea. You both need time to think, but just leaving it might leave it to fester.

I'm proud of you, you know.

[starmark]

I'm sorry you're in the middle, Giorno.

Even if you're fine with it, I don't think it's fair if you end up caught in that position.

[digiorno]

I've dealt with worse.