[Something interesting happens, then. They're talking through text, which means their thoughts are captured and transmitted, as opposed to chosen and formed via speech. And here, the magitek grasps onto a flash, a fleeting spike of irritation that might not have been voiced, if they were speaking in person.]
are there feelings that make sense?
[That's been his experience with feelings, after all. Illogical, irrational, impossible quantify in any meaningful way...difficult identify, when they occur. The experience of emotions is a lot more confusing than his existence before them. But ironically, it's that very quality of emotions and sentimentality that drew him in in the first place. It wasn't until the questions started building up that he even considered the idea of an existence for himself, something that went against all of his conditioning to that point. It wasn't until he was confronted with something he couldn't understand, but which he could not ignore nor dismiss.
He's trying to understand those things now, but it's difficult, still. There is only so much he can get from books, after all.]
i ... i had found myself thinking that it would be better to be close by, consolidate our forces in case percy were to surface and we needed to move to capture him, or if another incident was to occur, but ...
[But the more he thinks about it, the more that reasoning doesn't make sense. Why not contact him to arrange a meeting? Why didn't he return to Naruto's residence with him in the first place, if that was his goal?
Why had he felt the need later? Sai can't describe it, the itch under his skin that had led him to follow Naruto's magitek marker to the place where he lived immediately, with no room for patience or forethought or planning. He doesn't know. He can't figure it out.]
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are there feelings that make sense?
[That's been his experience with feelings, after all. Illogical, irrational, impossible quantify in any meaningful way...difficult identify, when they occur. The experience of emotions is a lot more confusing than his existence before them. But ironically, it's that very quality of emotions and sentimentality that drew him in in the first place. It wasn't until the questions started building up that he even considered the idea of an existence for himself, something that went against all of his conditioning to that point. It wasn't until he was confronted with something he couldn't understand, but which he could not ignore nor dismiss.
He's trying to understand those things now, but it's difficult, still. There is only so much he can get from books, after all.]
i ... i had found myself thinking that it would be better to be close by, consolidate our forces in case percy were to surface and we needed to move to capture him, or if another incident was to occur, but ...
[But the more he thinks about it, the more that reasoning doesn't make sense. Why not contact him to arrange a meeting? Why didn't he return to Naruto's residence with him in the first place, if that was his goal?
Why had he felt the need later? Sai can't describe it, the itch under his skin that had led him to follow Naruto's magitek marker to the place where he lived immediately, with no room for patience or forethought or planning. He doesn't know. He can't figure it out.]
that explanation is missing something