[He clenches his teeth, sets his jaw. He's shaking, not much but head to toe.]
I can't think of the words. All I can think is that I want to kiss you, because that's easy--I know how to say what I mean like that. And words are always there the rest of the time, so why not now--!
[Belatedly, he realizes he's being stubborn. He could curl up and cry on Fugo's shoulder if he wanted to. He's allowed. Fugo would hold him as long as he needed. But he's determined, now, to find the words. He won't let the newness of this control him--when has he ever let anything control him?]
I'm-- [Huffing a little, he sniffs and frowns down at his pudding cup.] I know you want to stay with me. That's what makes it feel so stupid to be worried. You told me. Not in those words, but . . . I know. I can see it every time you look at me. So I don't understand why I'm still so scared.
. . . You're being so sweet to me. Even right now, when I'm like this. I know that's because you love me.
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[He clenches his teeth, sets his jaw. He's shaking, not much but head to toe.]
I can't think of the words. All I can think is that I want to kiss you, because that's easy--I know how to say what I mean like that. And words are always there the rest of the time, so why not now--!
[Belatedly, he realizes he's being stubborn. He could curl up and cry on Fugo's shoulder if he wanted to. He's allowed. Fugo would hold him as long as he needed. But he's determined, now, to find the words. He won't let the newness of this control him--when has he ever let anything control him?]
I'm-- [Huffing a little, he sniffs and frowns down at his pudding cup.] I know you want to stay with me. That's what makes it feel so stupid to be worried. You told me. Not in those words, but . . . I know. I can see it every time you look at me. So I don't understand why I'm still so scared.
. . . You're being so sweet to me. Even right now, when I'm like this. I know that's because you love me.