Uh-huh. And I never—

[Ugh, oh no, he's getting all embarrassed now, shoulders hunched over the bowl.]

I mean, I was so . . . focused before, so I always looked but I never let myself get really invested, because I knew I had too much to do. And then I was invested in him without even meaning to be, and then I thought he liked me, and I didn't even realize how much I did until I started thinking about it.