[It's a simple question he's being asked, and there's a simple answer to it in exchange, except that what makes answering it considerably more complicated is the fact that the simple answer isn't the only one by any means. The easy answer is a plain no; if he had any ideas, any direction to even begin to start from, this wouldn't be nearly so difficult a prospect to cope and contend with.
The ways he wants to answer yes are harder. He's starting to accept that no matter what he does, there will always be a part of him that wants to go back to the night of January 16th and stay with his grandfather and Kakyoin instead of doubling back to go find Polnareff. There's also a much vaguer, more frustrated I want to stop feeling like this, which is all well and good but still equally directionless.
And then there's, well. There's still, admittedly, the stupid whimsy things that don't quite seem to reconcile with everything else, the weird little flashes of fascination born of finding out that dolphins sleep with only half their brain at a time.
None of that adds up into much of anything, not really.]
...No.
[He settles on that, because it's just easiest.]
I can think of a few things I'll have to do. But they're not aspirations or anything.
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The ways he wants to answer yes are harder. He's starting to accept that no matter what he does, there will always be a part of him that wants to go back to the night of January 16th and stay with his grandfather and Kakyoin instead of doubling back to go find Polnareff. There's also a much vaguer, more frustrated I want to stop feeling like this, which is all well and good but still equally directionless.
And then there's, well. There's still, admittedly, the stupid whimsy things that don't quite seem to reconcile with everything else, the weird little flashes of fascination born of finding out that dolphins sleep with only half their brain at a time.
None of that adds up into much of anything, not really.]
...No.
[He settles on that, because it's just easiest.]
I can think of a few things I'll have to do. But they're not aspirations or anything.